Here's Why You Should Be Mindful of How You Treat Others

A popular YouTube creator just committed suicide due to online bullying.


YouTube Gamer Desmond "ETIKA" Amofah was found dead this Tuesday morning after his body was pulled out of New York's East River. Authorities and fans of the popular YouTuber are speculating that Etika committed suicide. He was 29 years old.

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"I'm sorry for leaving such a stained legacy..."
— Desmond "Etika" Amofah

Police confirmed the body was the YouTube star who had been missing since June 20. In a statement released to the public via Twitter, NYPD said, "We regret to inform that Desmond Amofah aka Etika has been found deceased." 

Police had began searching for Etika a week ago, after fans bombarded New York City's police department with concerned phone calls after Etika uploaded a YouTube video on an alt account stating that he planned to kill himself. In the video, Etika spoke about mental health while walking through Manhattan, and said that he was "sorry for leaving such a stained legacy." He then went on to say "I hope that my story maybe helps to make YouTube a better place in the future where people know boundaries and limits and how far things should go." The alleged suicide video has since been removed.

At the height of Etika's popularity, he had over 620,000 YouTube subscribers and millions of views. He received public backlash after coming out to his fans that he suffered from mental illness. Etika became the victim of trolls and online reporters which increased in number as his popularity grew. Many filed frivolous reports about some of Etika's videos to have them demonetized or removed from YouTube. Most of Etika's videos were of him playing Super Smash Bro on his Nintendo Switch.

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"And now, it's my turn to die. I love you all. Keep fighting for me, ok?"
— Desmond "Etika" Amofah

8 months ago, the online bullies succeeded in having Etika's YouTube channel shut down. He posted a screenshot showing his YouTube channel had been deleted on Reddit, with a message that said, "And now, it's my turn to die. I love you all. Keep fighting for me, ok? I'll miss yall :* make the world better for your own kids, and REMEMBER TO STARGAZE. These last 6 years have been an HONOR." The Reddit post is alleged to be Etika's first public declaration of his wish to take his own life. Indicating that the loss of his YouTube channel and mental health outlet particularly hit him hard.

In the since-deleted suicide video, Etika said, “Let my story be one that advises caution on too much of the social media shit... It will fuck you up and give you an image of what you want your life to be. ... Unfortunately, it consumed me.” 

It is absolutely heartbreaking that such a bright, young man took his own life due to bullying and online trolling — something that I myself and others I know have been a victim of often. It is something that is rarely given enough thought and all too often ends tragically. Etika had published a video once that violated YouTube's Terms of Service. There are some who are saying that's sufficient to not empathize with Etika and that "he got what he deserved". I don't agree with that. Etika was not perfect. No human being is. He didn't deserve to receive so much hate and bullying over mistakes any human being can make —especially a human known to be suffering from a mental illness.

Often, social media can be an outlet for those suffering from mental illness. And when that ability to connect with others is stripped from you, then one adds the included pressure and isolation of being bullied and harassed by seemingly hundreds of people online, sometimes the results can be tragic — resulting in self harm or the harm of others. In Etika's case, his lost outlet was his YouTube channel. In my case, and others who are like me, it is the Thin & Pure Discord server - which has been reported and shut down many times in past weeks, resulting in emotional and psychological trauma of many members who were in the community. No one is saying that Etika should be exempt from rules due to his mental unwellness. What I am saying is that sometimes, understanding and grace is the best guide to steer someone who's gone astray in the right direction. And that we should all be careful and mindful of how we treat others. Rarely is being a Social Justice Warrior rallying against an unwell or hurting person the answer.

If you or anyone you know is considering suicide, call the 24-hour National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at +1-800-273-8255.


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